anxiety?

I moved into a new apartment 2 months ago - in my kitchen I hung a mirror above some shelving where I keep jars of spices, and dry goods.

In the dream I wake from a nap and walk into the kitchen to find the mirror (unbroken) on the floor and the shelving taken down. I go next door to get my neighbour and ask her if she had been at my apt. _ She says no - and I ask her to come with me to see what had happened.

When we get back to my kitchen other shelves have been put up and I feel the blood drain from my face - i look at her and say "they're still here" - I pick up my baseball bat and we search through each room and find no one - by the time we get back to the kitchen the shelves have changed again.

I pick up the phone and call my brother and ask him to come over - he tells me he can't but he knows what is going on. I say - what? He says there are a group of punks that decided they don't like me and are going to kill me - they are holding him at his house so he can't leave and help me. He says - all I can tell you is to run! and run now!

I run out the door and through my neighbours house in hopes of avoiding them.
They meet me at their front door and we head down the street.
I tell them I need to go to the washroom and we stop into the Starbucks at the end of my street.

The washrooms are downstairs in a half basement. The washrooms are individual rooms so I think- perfect if there is a window - I can sneak out. I get into the stall and there is a little door - i think wow! I lucked out- I open the door and crawl out (it is sunny and the grass is nice and green) Unfortunately, I am greeted at the door by one of the female punks- she says nice try. I manage to get away again and am walking down the street - a group of hoods start following me and so I turn and changed direction to see if they would still follow me and they do - so I turn around and say I know who you are - and they say you have to follow us or we'll do it right here.

We cross the street and there is a policewoman given directions- I mouth to her to Help Me! She looks and I say it again - she pulls me aside and I tell her what is happening. The group haven't noticed that I am with them.

Then! that guy Lukas from RockStar Supernova comes up to the policewoman and holds up a newspaper clipping saying- look I'm in the last 3 ! I say - well, that's all very nice- you're well suited to the band - but that group of people over there have guns and they are going to shoot me. The group are walking towards us and I ask the cop if she has a bullet proof vest I could put on. They are getting closer...

... and I wake up with a start.

news creeps in...

Dreamt last week...

that I was in Lebanon with my Mom, Dad, Sister and her 2 girls. We are dodging bombs - but the bombs are like big cannonballs. When the cannonballs hit the ground they don't explode they just create huge craters where they hit. Some of the cannonballs, when they hit the ground they burst open and thousands of huge crane-like mechanical birds fly out and fly away. Others fall and burst open with thousands of mechanical butterflies. I tell everyone not to look at them- that even though they are beautiful they are still evil and trying to distract us from looking out for the ones that will hit and kill us.

We get to a building where we will be able to catch a plane home. We are wandering down corridor after corridor - the hallways are light blue and dimly lit. Then a bomb hits and half the building falls away. I am trying to remain calm as I am holding my sisters baby. My breathing is heavy and I am trying to to cry from fear. Just then I tell myself to wake up - that I am dreaming -

... and so I do wake up. Breathing heavy and a little bewildered.

dream 07.30.05

I dreamt...

I was in a Shakespearean play and couldn't remember my lines. I was dressed in full elizabethan regalia and kept asking everyone if they had they're script with them. My parents were in the audience and I was nervous about looking like an idiot. Finally someone showed the script to me and I saw I only had ne line and I was suppposed to be dressed as a green fairie - i had one line and was then supposed to dance around the stage- my cue came and I pulled it off ...

and woke up

dream 07.08.05

I dreamt...

I was walking with my Dad on Toronto Island, when a very large lion started running towards us. Just as it was about to leap on us Wonder Woman appeared and restled it to the ground. I in turn spun around to find myself in a super hero costume and she asked if I would be her side-kick. I thought sure! That would be so cool.

We were then back at her house and she was ironing her wig straight. I said that isn't your real hair! I had been thinking that they had really chosen a great replacement to the original Wonder Woman. But I felt a bit wierded out that she had to wear a wig.

....

dream 06.25.05

I dreamt...

I was at a concert - and the concert was in a massive barn. I think we were waiting for Coldplay to come on. I had to find my niece and she was way up in the rafters. I was trying to climb up when someone started pulling on my leg to try and stop me- I was laughing but starting to get annoyed. the guy pulling on my leg- says I like your rain boots- i look down and I have super cute red rainboots on- i say thanks now, LET GO!

Next thing I know I am in a fancy hotel in NYC... my best friend from High School is there with me and we have run out of ciggies so i say i will go get them. I walk down to the lobby and they tell me I have to go across the street to get them. Across the street is a german restaurant and I am worried about running into my parents friends- seeing I wasn't properly dressed and look a little bit of a mess. When i come back out it is raining and I get soaked and feel like a homeless person because I didn't wear any shoes.

I get to the elevators and there are two on each wall. I think that the ones on the left are service elevators but I get into one of them anyway. It starts to turn sideways and there is another lady in it too and she says - oh I hate this part.. I said where are we going I only need to go to the 10th floor.

Then all of a sudden I am in a harness and being taken along a track high in the air- it starts to descend and I think well, I'll just get off when I get to the ground and take the stairs. I pass by some people and ask them how do I get out of this thing- they laugh and say they don't know. It starts to accelerate and I scream for them to help me!

It slows again and passes by the front of the hotel where there are a huge lot of Irish tourists hanging out on the patio doing kareoke - i ask them to help me- but they can't either - i am screaming so much I am losing my voice.

Somehow, I get out of the harness and walk back into the hotel. I think I should call my friend and tell her I am ok because I have been gone a long time by this point. I walk to the stairs but they are closed off - and my only choice is the elevator again. I look at the regular ones and for some reason don't choose them - but instead choose the service ones again. This time there is a very handsome man in the elevator and an elevator operator. This elevator is tiny and we are packed in like sardines - which I don't seem to mind because of the handsome red-head. I am chatting with him and I look to see that the 8th, 10th and 14th floor lights are on for the selected floors. We pass the 8th and the light goes out- then we should be at the 10th and it keeps going and the 14th light goes out. I start to get worried and ask why did we skip the 10th floor? I keep asking but the operator won't answer me - he says oh we'll get ther we'll get there. I bury my face into the handsome stranger and he smells really good-

i wake up.

dream 06.18.05

I dreamt...

that my eyebrows kept growing- and everytime I went to the mirror I would pluck them - turn a corner and find another mirror and I would be full blown Frida Kahlo all over- and I had to constantly keep plucking, and then...

i wake up

dream 06.17.05

I dreamt...

my ex from University was in my bed with me, there was another woman there to which I paid little attention. Things were getting intimate with him and all of a sudden he said - "don't touch me"- I said "why?" he said "I've been burned- my daughter knocked over a candle and when i tried to put it out my clothes were set on fire". I said " your daughter? - you married Sue?" - him" yes" I say are you happy? - or well, i guess not - if your in my bed.
Then we leave my room and it turns into a hotel swimming pool- in the 40's - I am wearing a 40's style bathing suit and an elaborate bathing cap - i dive in and am very happy swimming around. I come up for air and take off the bathing cap because I want to feel the water through my hair. When I dive back in there are movie theatre seats at the bottom of the pool and there is someone trying to clean up the area - but i keep swimming. My ex is in the water too and we are swimming around each other. He turns into Brad Pitt, but I know it is still him and underwater I say to him- you know I really loved you - he says - yes I know- i loved you too. We get out of the pool and are standing by an elevator- I ask if he is going home to his wife and he says yes - i should. He hands me flowers and steps into the elevator. The doors close and...

I wake up.